All in tears

Take a look at me.
And throw me away soonly.
It is not that you got a hate
It is 'cause I made you just to hate.
I can explode sometimes
And don't know where the fragments are going to
But all I know is that hurt so much more in me than anybody else.
But there's no way back for me.
And I'm so sorry for have hurt along the life.
No one likes, but this is the only way.
I'll never bother nobody else.
Just to never make happen to hurt you again.
Now I understand why I have to be alone.
A monster is what I really am, not an ideal human that I ever tried to be.
I'm all in tears
Forever in apologies
What I've got is nothing.
I've lost my friends
Lost my family
Lost everything
Lost you.